decay - the autumn offering

Just one more high.
This life is all I know.
Hide in myself, I'm condemned by myself.
I'll decay before my time.
Choking upon this guilty deed of mine.
Home on the floor, you can hit me once more.
Will power is dead and gone.
Confined, this guilty deed of mine.
My life, I'll decay before my time, confined.
Just sit back and watch it all.
I can't be what you want from me.
Regret has set, and sank its teeth in me.
Into the skin, not knowing when I will win.
Bruised body is all I hold.
It's not my choice.
I have no grip on this.
Blinded by light, always losing my fight.
Just crumble and lose it all.
Confined, this guilty deed of mine.
My life, I'll decay before my time, confined