it's gonna kill me - filter

*Yes, this song parallels the characters of Mutiny on the Bounty, namely Captain William Bligh and first mate Fletcher Christian and the theme of mutiny. Rich uses it as a description of some of his relationships with male friends and past co-musicians (aka Trent Reznor and Brian Liesegang). He also says it's about apologies for the loss of control of ego and behavior. Captain Bligh reflects the loss of true friendship because of the blind clash between egos, and attitudes. Rich calls the song one of adolescent screaming and confusion.*
I'll give you one good tiny reason I think you could believe it
I'll give you one good tiny reason I think you could see through it
I'm not the kind of man that thinks the truth could hurt me
I'm not the kind of man that thinks the truth can see me
You know a little bit goes a long way
You know a little bit lasts a long time
And the time has come to undo the wrong I've done
I am a grieving man
I can't believe the things I've done to you
I am a guilty man
And I can't believe the things I've done to you
I give you one good tiny reason to push that big suit too far
I give you one good tiny reason to smash him and his big car
Everybody thinks I'm blue and what everybody thinks is true yeah
I just can't keep it inside
So you think it's you
So you think it's true
You know a little bit lasts a long time
You know a little bit goes a long way
And the time has come to undo the wrong I've done
And I am a grieving man
I can't believe the things I've done to you
I am a beaten man
I can't believe the things I've done to you
And I am blood-soaked man
I can't believe the things I've done to you
I am a guilty man
I can't believe the things I've done to you
And I am a grieving man
I can't believe the things I've done to you
I am a beaten man
I can't believe the things I've done to you
(unintelligible gibberish)
I've tried to pray
I've tried to pray
I've tried to pray
Yes I will give it a shot
Yes I will give it a shot
Yes I will give it a shot
Shot
Shot

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