lost myself in search of you - matt nathanson

I was holding you so tight and you were holding me
So wrapped up in the moment I was feeling such security
And the first few weeks felt just like heaven,
but I never really seemed to get that high
So now I sit here laughing at the time that past me by.
It s times like these, when I feel I'm on my knees begging
please don't go.
And as you slipped away I couldn't admit that we were through
As you slipped away
I found I lost myself in search of you
I was holding you so tight and you were holding him
But you left the door so wide open that I was sure you'd come back in
And now the only time I can hold you is in my mind
And that doesn't seem to fill me up inside
So yes I felt lonely and yes I felt a need
And you seemed to feel it necessary to make me see
That I was wrong and you were right
And that all my attempts were in vain
But I was pretty sure you'd turn around and want me back again
And as you slipped away I couldn't admit that we were through
As you slipped away I found I lost myself in you
I was holding you so tightly when you needed help
I guess insecurities catch up to you when You're lying to yourself
But I wasn't lying when I told you all that you could be
But it was no use, you never really ever listened to me
I was holding you so tight but now I've let you go.