misery - the autumn offering

So many times, fucked up been stuck.
Too many lies to keep locked up.
I've made these mistakes for that I'll pay, you wait and see.
Self destruction seems to be the only way.
The truth are lies in me, anger leads misery.
I'll try so hard to change from day to day.
Falling back is all I know.
This book is broken upon, the time of death is chosen.
Falling down, no turning back now.
I've tried so hard through the years, I tried so hard but only failed.
Feels like I'm always stuck in here, my mind this hell.
I feel it's time to make a change, this time we'll see.
I'll say to you, don't hold your breath.
Don't hold your breath, you will regret.
I've made an attempt, for that I should make a change.
Self destruction lies.
I know what you want, I cannot be what you want